A Day in the Life

I have come to realize that life with a baby is all about the immediate and routine. When she needs something she needs it quickly, and we do the same things over and over each day. I really love it. 

Every day Kate gets quite "drunk" after she eats:) She wears a bib because she is a messy eater!

She has some bouncy seat time every day. Today was the first day she actually watched the bubbles and little creatures! 

She laughs and plays with dad....

and mom!!!

Unfortunately, her favorite pastime is watching TV. She will sometimes stare at it for 10-15 minutes at a time (which in 2 month-old time is like an hour:) We will have to limit her TV time when she gets bigger I think!

Sometimes the shows get scary!

It's so hard to wake up from a deep sleep to eat!

Almost there!

Kate rides in her car seat almost everyday and isn't too fond of it....unless the car is moving:)

And after all that, who wouldn't need some sleep?

By the way, I highly recommend the Swaddle Me blanket she is sleeping in. She didn't seem to like it at first but I tried it again a few weeks later. Now it is one member of "The Indispensable Trifecta of Sleep" (aka, hat, paci, swaddle me blanket)

Kendra and Jeanie both tagged me to go to my 6th folder and post the 6th picture. It's baby Kate being checked and cleaned right after she was born. She looks SUPER annoyed. I would be too:) 

Now I tag my SISTER

Smiles All Around

***warning: this post contains a rather ridiculous amount of pictures. I couldn't narrow them down.***

Kate turned 6 weeks old on Saturday! In the last two weeks she has started to smile and coo! I think it is pretty much the cutest thing ever:) I took about a gazillion pictures of her this morning trying to capture a smile and was able to get a few. 

Her new favorite thing is "naked time". This is when she gets to lay on her changing pad with no diaper for a little bit. She kicks and waves her arms and talks and smiles up a storm! It's hilarious how much she loves it. I took all these pictures directly after naked time when she was still quite happy:) 

She gave herself a nasty scratch because I didn't trim her razor thumb nail in time.

This picture shows how big she has gotten! I can't wait to get her stats at the doctor in a few weeks.

Close range surprise face:)

"Come here, I wanna tell you a secret."

I love this one:)

Looking exactly like her dad while sneezing. (she and I both have a bit of a cold.)

Starting to smile!

Working those arms and legs!

I included this one to show how long and chubby her body is and how short and skinny her legs are. Last night David and I were laughing because he said she looks like Dogbert from the "Dilbert" cartoon strip. She really does:)

Time Flies

Today our little munchkin turned 4 weeks old! These 4 weeks have flown by and each one has gotten easier and more fun. Kate is simply a delightful baby. She continues to be so content and eats and sleeps like a champ!  I feel kinda guilty for having such an easy baby. The Lord never ceases to amaze me with his blessings! 

We learn more about her all the time. She loves her bath and loves looking out the window, she prefers to be put in her bed to fall asleep (this one is a little sad, I love holding sleeping babies), she loves her paci, she hates tummy time, she hates her swing. The funniest thing she does is grunt (a very deep, manly grunt!) about EVERYTHING. Anyone who hears her laughs and comments on what a noisy baby she is:) It really makes us laugh. I think she is going to be very vocal...wonder where she gets that from? :)

I am loving being a mom more and more. Taking care of her feels very natural and I am having success with getting her on a routine, which makes me feel much more prepared for each day. I feel a little sad over how fast she is growing though! She already seems to have left the newborn stage. I am trying to savor her tininess:) 

Well, that is about all I can think of for now. For the most part I don't feel super exhausted from day to day but my brain stays pretty fuzzy so I know I am! 

On this particular night she liked her tummy time and David got some really adorable shots.

Do you think she looks at all like me? 

Sometimes she just conks out. It's super cute. 

This was her first real bath after her umbilical cord FINALLY fell off after 3 1/2 weeks! I love how much she enjoys her bath. She gets so quiet and content and just looks around peacefully. And wrapping her up in her towel after we are done is the most snuggley thing ever. 

Dad, if you are reading this, I thought you would laugh at this last picture because of her huge hands! 

There is the update! We are one happy household right now!

At her 2 week check up today Kate weighed in at 9 lbs and 3 oz! That's an ounce short of a pound over her birth weight! That made this first time mama's heart very happy:) It's good to know you are feeding your baby well.....

2 Weeks

I can hardly believe that Kate is 2 weeks old today! Time is really flying. It's hard to find the balance between looking forward to when life begins to normalize and she sleeps through the night and savoring these early days of her being so tiny. The first 10 days were pretty difficult as I was experiencing "baby blues" and didn't really realize it. My feelings of being overwhelmed and wondering if life would ever be the same (or even remotely resemble what it used to be) rubbed off on David and led to some pretty "down" times for us emotionally. But on day 10 I woke up feeling completely like  my old self emotionally and the future seemed bright and rosy. It's crazy what hormones can do to you! I have had a much easier time since then. Thank you so much if you have been praying for us! This adjustment has knocked David and I upside the head in a way we hadn't imagined!

David and I are both enjoying Kate more each day. She is truly the sweetest of babies. She continues to be so content and her few fussy times are quickly soothed. We went out on our first date last night (thanks Granni and Pop!) and half way through dinner I already missed her so much! She is just so easy and fun to take care of and makes us laugh with all her little facial expressions! 

Here are just some of them for you to enjoy!

This is what she does when I am trying to wake her up to eat. Just goes totally limp and huffs and puffs as though waking up would be the worst thing ever.

She smiles in her sleep all the time! I can't wait til they become purposeful!

"Oh my goodness! Would you look at that!"

Meeting one set of great grands for the first time. David is blessed to have both sets of grandparents still living and here in Charlotte! Kate has so much doting family!

I love her skinny legs and perfect little feet.

Looking like a MUCH older baby then she actually is!

Our Girl

Our Baby Kate is home and doing so well! She is really the most content newborn! She is nursing near perfectly, naps long and soundly, and has amazingly long stretches of being wide awake and looking around at all her loving family. 

That doesn't mean we are getting tons of sleep:) But so far I feel rested enough to function well with taking short naps. I didn't expect to feel so weak and tired after delivery (naivete of a first time mom!) I am really looking forward to being able to care for her when I am feeling strong and like myself again. 

Here are some pictures of her!

This one should actually be turned the other way. 

Sleeping in her cradle! She loves sleeping in our arms but does well when we put her in her bed:)

This was after her first bath last night. She stayed this wide awake for 2 1/2 hours after her bath! I couldn't believe it! Then she fell so sound asleep that she didn't eat for 5 hours so that wasn't great, but no harm done:)

Well, that's all for now. I don't know when I will be posting again, but I will try to keep updated. Prayers for healing (did have some nasty stuff happen with the delivery), strength, and continued grace would be much appreciated! Love you all!

Baby Kate Is Here!

Hey peoples, this is David filling in for Anne. Well, Baby Kate has finally arrived! Anne started having contractions late Friday night and her doctor said to go to the hospital at 4:30 AM this morning. When we got there she was already 9.5 cm! Anne was having a really rough time, but then....the epidural came. It went perfectly and in 10 minutes Anne was her normal self, smiling and happy. The baby came quickly after not much pushing and both mom and baby are doing very well. Kate is 8 lbs 4 oz and 20.5 inches long, so she is pretty chunky! So far she has been amazingly peaceful, she has already fed really well and is content to just lay there and look around. She's hardly cried at all. I'm sure Anne will update herself soon, but for now I'll leave you with a couple pictures.

Thanks!

Thank you so much to all of you who have left comments, emailed me, and talked to me in person, and prayed for me regarding my last post about fear! You are all such dear friends and sisters! My heart has been much more at peace in this area. I even let her keep sleeping when I am up in the night and don't feel her move:) I talked to the doctor at my last appointment and he said that the fact she seems to sleep most of the night and be awake during the day is a very good thing as babies very often continue their "in womb" patterns after being born! So I say, way to go Kate! Keep sleeping all night:)

I love  you all and just wanted to let you all know how much you have encouraged me!

Today's Battlefield

The Lord has been so kind to pour out grace upon me to not fear during this pregnancy. Last year I went through a significant season of dealing with some very deep rooted fear. I was suspicious that I would struggle very much with fear during pregnancy. Fear of miscarriage, fear of something being wrong with the baby, fear of something terrible happening to me etc. But none of these things became a source of struggle. 

However, here in the final stretch, fear has raised it's head. Over the last year I have followed a couple of blogs written by women who lost babies just days before their due dates.  I have simply gotten interested in their lives and obviously their experience of loss has been a large factor in their writings this year. (We could argue the wisdom of reading these blogs while pregnant, but I think the Lord has used them to reveal an area that I need to fight for trust in Him.)

As I have neared and am now in the last weeks of pregnancy I have found myself really struggling with fear that Kate will die. Typically, this is the waiting and excited anticipation time. There is no thought of losing the baby now. But I have found myself preoccupied with this fear. She has taken to sleeping pretty deeply at night and so often I won't feel her move when I get up (multiple times!) to go the the bathroom at night. I have been filled with fear in those moments and have poked and prodded her awake until I felt her move, just to reassure myself. I have feared going to bed because I am scared I will wake up the next day and she'll be gone. I have even gone so far as to not want to look forward to her birth because I don't want to make the hurt greater should she not make it to birth. I have been discouraged because I know this sinful fear won't end at birth. Then I'll just transfer it to fearing that she'll die in the night. It will never end unless I ruthlessly deal with it now. 

And the Holy Spirit has so faithfully been coming along side to help me. In every moment of fear He calls me to come to Jesus and call to mind His words and promises. Then, when I come and meditate, He stills my anxious heart. I know that God alone upholds Kate's life. He gave it to her for a predetermined and perfect number of days. Should those days be shorter then I would long for He will supply the grace to walk through that grief. Because He has called me to be His daughter through the gift of salvation all His plans and paths for me will be for good and not evil. Even though losing my baby would be devastating and intensely painful, I trust the Lord that He would only do it to bring about my eternal good and His glory. Nothing can stop Him from that work. And nothing can take Kate's life out of His hand. And he LOVES ME through His son! How can I fear in the face of such perfect power and goodness?

As I was praying through and repenting of this sinful heart of fear the other morning, God also reminded me of the fact that He willingly gave up His son for me. No human being will or can ever love their child as the Father loves His son. They had had perfect communion for eternity. Yet, the Father gave up the Son to wrath and punishment for treacherous, wicked sinners like me. He turned His back on Him! He crushed Him! And He did it for people who hated Him. So how could I not WILLINGLY give my child back to Him should He ask for her?? He who loves her more then I ever will; He who is gentle and full of compassion? Afterall, she belongs not to me but to Him. She is a gift from Him. 

And so this is the battlefield on which I have been fighting. I wanted to post this as a confession of sin, a testimony of God's work in my heart, and a request for prayer. Please pray for me to continue to makes steps towards overcoming this sinful fear by God's grace. Pray that I would look forward with EXPECTANT FAITH to Kate's birth. Believing that the Lord will bring her forth in safety and grant me many years of mothering her. May He be glorified by my complete trust in Him!

In peace I will both lie down and sleep; for you alone, O Lord, make me (and Baby Kate!) dwell in safety. Psm 4:8

Baby Kate's Nursery

Here is her nursery! My sweet husband took these nice pictures for me with his camera since it's MUCH better than mine:)

It's hard to tell from the pictures, but the curtains and crib bedding are made from the same fabric. Marilyn made the curtains and Sarah Parks made the bedding (bumper and bedskirt). They both did an INCREDIBLE job and I am so very grateful to both of them for the way they blessed me!

This is the mural Jen is working on. Isn't she amazing? Artistic talent never ceases to amaze me. She still has a little to finish, some more details to the birds in the tree and some grass and foliage at the bottom.

My comfy glider! As I mentioned before, I have an identical bedside table to the black one in these pictures and Kath Flanigan is working on painting it white for me. So the black one will be gone:) Not quite the feeling I am going for, hehe, but it works well for right now!

It took months of agonizing to find a crib I liked! Yes, there was some idolatry that was identified:) But the Lord worked in my heart and then led me to this one which I LOVE. He is kind. That is Martha the pink hippo sitting in the little rocker. She is by far David's favorite of all Kate's possessions:)

And here is the cradle that is Larry's handiwork and wonderful gift to Kate. He has worked on it for months and it is stunning! I can't wait to lay our little baby in it!